Review of Exiting Modernity by Meta-nomad



A year ago, I came across the blogger on twitter known as Metanomad. He wrote blogs on Accelerationism and promoted the works of Land, Deleuze, and others to discuss ideas surrounding Capital and Modernity. When I first saw his posts on Exiting Modernity, I was lazy and didn’t feel the need to dissect or “consume” his content because I disagreed with his writing style, felt it was too condescending for my taste and thought it was another gimmick to buy into another system of beliefs. (To give the reader a bit of my background, this was a stage in my life where I was completely cynical, I use to believe and conform to certain ideologies that attempted to make sense of the world, to give me a purpose to live for some cause so others could prosper in the future.)

Fast forward to today and it’s New Years’ Eve 2019, rolling into 2020 and it just so happens that I finished reading and rereading his series of essays complied into a pdf so that it would be easier to read at lunch breaks during work. These essays helped in explaining the thoughts that I’ve had for a long time but couldn’t explain if someone asked me to. The repetition of pointing out age-old problems of grief, loneliness, and despair in an age of growing uncertainty leads the author to grab the attention of his audience that to solve them you must take action for yourself. His advice wasn’t meant as a command, rather it was to point the reader in the right direction, to find yourself within modernity and to learn how to live alongside while resisting it.

For me, it wasn’t too long ago where I once feverishly believed in egoism only for that to fade away in fears of trying to prop up a cult of personality. But even before that, I stumbled for most of my life trying to belong in a certain group or circle of people. From High school to Twitter, I was desperate in need of attention and surely enough, dopamine rushes came and went and it would drift into hours of distractions and drama each day that meant little to no value on me personally.

So I tried to conform and find a place for myself, I moved away from my family in an attempt to start a new life with strangers that I barely knew. Within two weeks, I was back to the place where I started due to mistakes both on my part and on my roommates. Then something changed when I came back to my family, I started being more responsible for myself and to others around me. I stop being on Twitter for a while by deleting the app on my phone, I started saving money from my paychecks and most importantly started learning how to survive and deal with other people in a kind way These were just a few positive traits, but they’re all adding up over time to discover a person that I’ve never known for a long time. As I write these words, it’s late at night and I sit here listening to the fireworks outside on a chilly night filling up with squabbles of snow rushing to the ground. In my house are me and my cat playing with her toys and just enjoying the moment of being in the present.

With that said, I would recommend these essays, you can find them here. As for me, I know they’re problems that need to be dealt with but for now, here’s to a happy new year. Cheers.


The Impossible Dream




“There are cultures which can only picture their origins and not their ends. Some are obsessed with both. Two other positions are possible: only picturing one’s end- our own culture; picturing neither beginning nor end- the coming culture.” -Jean Baudrillard, Cool Memories

it was nothing special, it was just that Louis used to rape me on the porch swing after Dorothy had driven into town . . . I rented out my little pussy for no money and afterward, he always wept and tried to untangle the knot of chewing gum in my hair . . . there was nothing left to cry about except America would keep on fucking me and all fathers want to fuck their daughters and most of them do and only a minority refrain and it’s not clear why except the world is always one long yearning to go back.”- Valerie Solanas

Late September, Early October, 2019.


The country known as the United States of America has an abundance of problems ahead. It has somehow lasted two and a half centuries, with a hot civil war and two major world wars. By the end of the Cold War, politicians were surprised to see the unfolding of the USSR, leading to the question of “what to do next?” It didn’t take them long to answer this question, for then came 9/11 and the refusal of global order, “So, at Ground Zero, in the rubble of global power, we can only, find our own image.[1] Americans are either drowning in empathy and overwhelmed with different stages of indifference, seeing Evil so much that it crushes any hope for redemption, “we find ourselves psychologically shoulder to shoulder, cheek by jowl, with billions of other people.”[2]. The Internet itself is a domain and global communication networks which expands by wired, wireless and sneaker-netted connectors[3] This Global Village, as McLuhan referred to it causes a lack of privacy, a poisonous dynamic where its making everyone uncomfortable with everyone else’s opinion, jarring moral madness by finding oneself into a prison of ideas.

Where do you even begin? Economic uncertainty is a warning sign of a stagnant dystopia where all trust in financial markets is disappearing as resources become scarce. Governments that are aware of this growing divide by using its citizens against themselves and weaponize/dismantle resistance by recycling ideologies on social media, resulting in an opportunity for open-sourced insurgents to take advantage of the chaos that surrounds current events. “the aim is no longer to transform the world, but (as heresies of the day) to radicalize the world by sacrifice.”. [4]  This only works because there’s a nonlinear model of history, and interpretations of events are overwhelmed with competing information centers.

Politically, America itself is under a cold civil war. The 2016 election makes one realize this metaphor; “We elected the ultimate male class clown in a symbolic confrontation with the ultimate female HR director” [5]. The ventriloquists of these puppets exist in under two positions, a neoliberal global order where parastatal formations (NGO’s, private security agencies, morality campaigns, government policymakers, and property developers) act in accordance with maintaining their embedded networks versus transnational populist movements and their security networks[6]. What was once assumed as a binary conflict now just blurs all differences of opinions everywhere else in America itself, reinvigorating tribal instincts that were otherwise contained through reading literature. Media helps in sparking chaos while playing a game a chance with every person in existence “The media toss around sense and nonsense; they manipulate in every sense at once. No one can control this process: the media are the vehicle for the simulation which belongs to the system and for the simulation which destroys the system, according to a circular logic.”[7]

As the illusion of political war continues, Americans are also experiencing one crisis after another. Rent eats up half of the income of most Americans[8] , making housing is unaffordable for younger and future generations.  Suicide rates reach an all-time high among teens[9], Opioid Crisis that affects millions[10], catastrophic natural disasters blamed by climate change, and immigration are among the many issues facing everyone. These complex problems are so many to choose from, that by deciding to take action against all of them is an act of irrational impossibility. The experts that dictate the future of civilization via decision-making don’t have the experience to deal with simultaneous collapse other than “educated guesses.”  The decisions result in a decline of trust, family, community, and wellbeing that sets the precondition for a post-apocalyptic world without the need for nuclear annihilation. “The theory of catabolic collapse, explains the breakdown of complex societies as the result of the self-reinforcing cycle of decline driven by interactions among resources, capital, production, and waste.”[11]


Instead of praying in solidarity, one needs to maintain a proactive stance while protecting the most important illusion, memories. Memories remind us of our experiences, they remind us of the pain that a person deals with. These changes help develop and make us focused on communities

[1] Baudrillard, Jean. (2002) “ The Spirit of Terrorism”. Pg. 82. Retreived From

[2] April, 2019 Global Guerillas Report by John Robb


[4] Baudrillard, Jean “The Spirit of Terrorism” (2002), Retrieved From


[6] Amar, Paul. “The Security Archipelago”(2014) Ch. 2: Policing the Perversions of Globalism in Rio de Janeiro and Cairo, Emerging Parastatal Security Regimes Confront Queer Globalism’s. Retrieved From

[7] Baudrillard, Jean “The Masses The Implosion of the Social in the Media”(1985). Retrieved From









A Brief Introduction to Accelerationism



Among many onlookers that I’ve encountered online, Accelerationism has been a meme that attempts to escape boredom or a weird subculture of techno fetishists.  It is with that in mind that my intention for this guide is to inspire new paths to walk on.  From trying to understand philosophers to finding meaning in life, Accelerationism provides and series of bus stops to explore on. Before that’s explored, here is the main idea of Accelerationism.

To trace the genealogy of accelerationism is thus fraught with problems. On the most superficial level, accelerationism has existed for about a decade. At its unspoken core, it is impossibly ancient. Different focuses will yield wildly divergent results. No doubt an article on ‘accelerationism’ in some distant future edition of the Geschichtliche Grundbegriffe would take care to highlight the term’s formulation by [Benjamin] Noys, having traced the concern with ‘acceleration’ through obvious references back to Deleuze and Guattari, and from there to Nietzsche. It would look to the term’s adoption and disavowal by different groups on left and right in the mid to late 2010s. As an exercise in etymology, this would be interesting enough; as a genealogical investigation, it would be disastrous. Accelerationism is not a specific reading of Nietzsche any more than capitalism is a reading of Smith. A Marxian accelerationist does not need to have read a single page of A Thousand Plateaus to remain an accelerationist. Similar conclusions — similar sentiments — have been expressed from traditions seemingly almost entirely unaware of each other.“-Vince Garton

In other words, Accelerationism is a timeless, formless momentum of modern life and whether you use it for depends on the preferences that you want to have an effect later on in life. There are many ways in which you can adapt to momentum and struggles of life is by adopting skills and mental models that adjust to room temperature and then ” To Develop a skill, you must first isolate it, just as you use dumbbells to isolate and work specific muscles.(1) All these skills involve trial and error through decision making, with each result sharing an equilibrium between benefits and mistakes. With each benefit and mistake brings opportunities for other avenues of system flows  Three main visuals that are used to generally represent accelerationism can include these three examples.






Its not important to completely understand any of these mental constructs at first, these provide a flexible adaptation of storytelling within each environment that is encountered in any reality someone is currently involved. With a combination of cybernetics, introductions to anthropology and organization theory, mental models will provide a coherent rhetoric to springboard onto narratives. To take it a step further, the decision-making context’s created embedded systems and processes, creating default decisions in advance. Accelerationism is the analysis of such processes by observing the phenomenon in technology, its importance lies in the crucial assumption that history a combination of circumstances and chance. The tools that are needed to observe and adapt to an ever changing world depends on your EDC(Every day carry)  in real life and online.

“In philosophical terms, the deep problem of acceleration is transcendental. It describes an absolute horizon – and one that is closing in. Thinking takes time, and accelerationism suggests we’re running out of time to think that through, if we haven’t already. No contemporary dilemma is being entertained realistically until it is also acknowledged that the opportunity for doing so is fast collapsing.”(2)

Time is essential in observation, it helps studying patterns before they occur which will give people a chance to prepare in case of an emergency. Emergencies in this context mean freak occurrences that range from possible to improbable. Speed is involved as well it expands moments that occur randomly, its not the technology existing that is important, its the way your body responds to its functions. Speed can also prepare for existential outcomes with expectations;  it just depends on location, tools and learning from mistakes. Time itself will be incremented into predictions with each moment  being aware of certain changes that occur in other organisms. By prepping, it will help rediscover our 5 senses and then implement proprioception, which latches onto rhythm and nonrhythmic patterns of everyday life, stabilizing moods and harnessing intuition.

“The world moves faster than we can hope to keep up,  and we can adapt by separating change into a background of predictable rhythms, and a foreground of unusual rhythms and non-rhythmic elements. Without this separation into foreground and background, the sheer cognitive load of keeping up with change, the process of truth maintenance, would overwhelm us.”(3)

One last thing to mention is the road ahead in dealing with Accelerationism. Adjusting  to social environments, analyzing phenomenon and observing disorder will be a very process, the “hardest pills to swallow.” It will seem daunting, information overload will be common and the looming threat of pessimism/nihilism is gonna existed with or without your consent. As with all things difficult in life, it is part of the process to struggle with new challenges and to make decisions based on your own intuition. Everything else depends on your own creative destruction and how to rebuild structure afterwards.









For the past few months, I’ve haven’t been able to write a coherent article or any certain topic that I’m interested in. Whats happened instead is that I’m in the process of moving out West in America, with little to no time invested in improving my reading comprehension or writing skills. As my own survival gets put to the test and until I get settled in a new location, I won’t be able to write on here anymore.


That said, ive appreictated the people who enjoyed my articles before and encourage them to continue breathing and living as much as possible

Auto-didactic struggle


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“Auto-didacticism is drudgery, it’s like fighting on multiple fronts while the supply line has been cut off. Nevertheless, in the end—provided you have survived—it can prove more useful in the study of philosophy than academic training.

The latter is particularly important, how to train ourselves, how to turn our lives into an open-ended philosophical life while at the same time grapple with social and economic limitations and survive, how to build a platform for self-discipline that can psychologically and materially sustain us, and so on and so forth. Auto-didacticism in philosophy is not just about the gradual implementation of intellectual self-discipline but also about logistics, of how to stay alive, to live a satisfying life, to financially survive”-Reza Negarestani


Living in an uncertain, dynamically complex world with information circulating and disinformation replicating, it’s impossible to have stable convictions. The reactive perceptions and responses to technological mediums that occur simultaneously within all us depend on an adrenaline rush to defend or attack certain discourses. If people continue participating in these discourses, they will create an uncontrollable desire to continue fighting each other or burn out completely from talking about most topics, period. Religion cannot guide nor help people toward an improved, its wrapped up in doctrines that are impossible to practice physically and mentally, so it stands idly by as art forms(James 2:26). Impossible it is to perform certain doctrines in realities were it’s only permitted in artificial settings, rituals become a mirror image of its past self. What is not realized among internet religious discourses is that the more they’re on the Cyberspace, the effects are losing attention to their own faith(1). These Spiritual beliefs erode when they all become obsessively reactive to unrelated spectacles surrounding Media, politics and this late stage of capitalism. They become Noises in repetition and in the ritual while the rituals themselves that have played an integral part of institutions now start to become boring.


“Noise has overtaken information in our age. Signal and noise have switched places. We live in the value-dark dimension, a black hole of deconstructed values and exploded worldviews. Early industrial music looked at this cultural wasteland, gathered up some of the junk and decided to make music with it. In the process, they discovered new possibilities for “art noise,” explored the boundaries of music and anti-music, order and chaos, terror and bliss, beauty and bestiality. If the age of empire was dying, industrial music was busy scoring the funeral march. “ (2)


It’s not just in music that this is happening either, art has been alienated to such an extent that its instantly commodified or thrown out depend on the intensity of likes and retweets or to digitally share content without form. Slogans, paintings, and signs that point to the past can only be recreated in stageplay, it won’t be viable to revolt with Symbolic exchanging has been used to deterritorialize our thoughts and desires, crushing any hope for any communism and replace it with the anhiliation of the systems that are logistically connected in a series of signals.


Thus, against the organizing forms of modern thought and society, Baudrillard champions symbolic exchange as an alternative. Against modern demands to produce value and meaning, Baudrillard calls for their extermination and annihilation, providing as examples, Mauss’s gift-exchange, Saussure’s anagrams, and Freud’s concept of the death drive. In all of these instances, there is a rupture with the forms of exchange (of goods, meanings, and libidinal energies) and thus an escape from the forms of production, capitalism, rationality, and meaning. Baudrillard’s paradoxical concept of symbolic exchange can be explained as an expression of a desire to liberate himself from modern positions and to seek a revolutionary position outside of modern society. Against modern values, Baudrillard advocates their annihilation and extermination.” (3)


“Thus, the idea that workers could liberate themselves by taking over the means of production has always been a delusion. It was an understandable delusion when technological processes had the manufacture of goods as their primary aim. Now that their primary aim is so clearly social control, the nature of our real struggle should be clear: the destruction of all systems of control-thus of the state, capital and their technological system, the end of our proletarianized condition and the creation of ourselves as free individuals capable of determining how we will live ourselves. Against this technology, our best weapon is that which the exploited have used since the beginning of the industrial era: sabotage.” (4)


These suggestions that should be taken out of this is to start from the basics, focus on taking care of yourself first. What is meant by this suggestion is to make sure you’re healthy in order to help whoever you want alive. This can be interpreted at all levels, starting with an obligation to speak in vague terms while explaining them in short sentences, “There are times when it is unwise to be silent. Silence can arouse suspicion and even insecurity, especially in your superiors; a vague or ambiguous comment can open you up to interpretations you had not bargained for. The most dangerous men and women in each civilization are the people who don’t express their opinions, the ones who are behind the scenes, waiting for the terroristic counter-gift that cannot be exchanged back. It might seem impossible to perform this way until you realize that as the world becomes bitterly divided over politics, strong sentiments of Apolitical tendencies have become more apparent as a way of escaping discourse. By focusing on art, guns, beauty and other hobbies, the apolitical subject is more aware of the implications without the exaggeration required by pundits, journalists. Apolitical avant-gardism combined with a lumpenproletariat drive of deterritorialized politics has reproduced schisms into everyday life. Politicians have alienated their own citizens by hyper-visualized rage enacted by exaggerated fears of the apocalypse, corporate lobbying and corruption charges, resulting in bipartisan fanaticism out of sheer desperation clashing onto each other. There won’t be enough prison walls for prisoners, instead, the Global Village has become the Global Prison. Each cell and subsection divided up into factions with no border gate and expansion of security guards. As for maintaining one’s own self-determination, territorial disputes and sovereignty itself become impossible as contradictory logics by policymakers and its associates stampedes third party resistance in a competitive drive for global resources. Outrage and Cynicism manufactured by the Corporate-State Apparatus are bandages to hide the infectious wounds that surround its decay,  its used as a means of reinforcing reform that does not impact the control over the average person. Reactions to such actions committed by the State continue to circulate due to peoples inability to construct utopias/revolutions and so it relapses into nostalgia and brand recognition among celebrities and songwriters.


With all this in mind, it’s important to reconsider and accept certain harsh truths of the world that surrounds us. One such truth is that all of us has the tendency to behave irrationally, bad decisions stem from mostly ignorance and pride. As deepfakes continue to overcome the Cyberspace, real footage is undistinguishably fake and so it demands everyone to “speak their minds” on topics in which we have little to no knowledge on. Another thing to consider is the accessibility of tools both logically and materially at our disposable. As global resources become scarce, they’re broken down into components and units, this shows that people need to use our resources effectively that you’ll be to protect certain people, locations and yourself from others. The State, family, and military wont protect you since most of the time, they have their own interests to consider and are in competition with other factions that surround each nation state today. This means everyone is at war with their own living environments every day because of struggles against other people and natural disasters that inflict us in some ways. Protect your loved ones,  preserve your life for as long as possible, keep spiritual beliefs that you have left and always be aware of your surroundings.

Postmodern Dyslexia



“The only justification for thinking and writing is that it accelerates these terminal processes. Here, beyond the discourse of truth, resides the poetic and enigmatic value of thinking. For, facing a world that is unintelligible and problematic, our task is clear: we must make that world even more unintelligible, even more enigmatic.”Jean Baudrillard (1)


Writing has become an experience similar to the independent contractor, the rules to the contract are there but that comes with multiple interpretations arising from the same words and uncertainty clouds everyone’s judgment. As politics shifts into dynamic complexity with overarching cynicism, opinions of certain topics cause headaches and blurs within the perception of our own reality. What is meant here is the fundamental structure of ideology has dissolved into slogans, phrases, convictions with no design or presentation of a better society.  What has been an unconscious expression of our experiences has now become a dystopia of prophets attempting to ruthlessly crush the betrayal of the abstractions that once kept them in comfort.  The thoughts that occur in our heads are supposed to express words with a substantial purpose to live, that is until you realize how much language consists of phonemes. Sounds such as “uhh”, “umm”, “hmmm”, “ahhh” are the semi-primitive expressions of uncertainty, comfort, and intrigue. These phonemes are just distractions to our delayed responses to difficult questions

Dyslexia power dynamics are what guides the world of politics, McLuhan defined Dyslexia as “… an inability to adopt a single, fixed point of view with respect to all letters and words: conversely, it consists of approaching letters and words from many points of view simultaneously (right-hemisphere fashion), minus the assumption that any one way is solely correct” Having a strong conviction or opinion on certain topics or events is a wormhole in which continual debate only shows the rhetoric being fed to on one or many sides. Candid responses from the same figureheads, celebrities, commentators should show that by adopting a fixed point of view, you are enclosed into an ever-shrinking box full of the same opinions that will consume you into a cryogenic bubble and political lobotomy. Usually, people today still upheld the notion that one is courageous to take a stand against all the forces of cybernetics and security systems by expressing their own emotions given to them. If these people stay on Cyberspace for long enough, they will find out that their opinions dont give you any social clout on its own. They depend on certain aesthetics, certain (bad) qualities to make you seem to appeal to others own dreams that they truly want to be. Even the Black Mirror episode called “15 million” merits speech shows that even the most realistic, nihilistic interpretation of the world is exploited, commodified into talk shows and podcasts. Xenogoth, in one of his articles, quotes Mark Fisher in particular for this:

“Mark wrote about this in his essay “Touchscreen Capture”:

The genius of communicative capitalist capture is that it is indifferent to content. It doesn’t care how many anti-capitalist messages are circulating, only that the circulation of messages continues, incessantly. This is a seemingly perfect system of capture in which “[c]hanging the system seems to entail strengthening the system.” One consequence is that an “invidious and predatory political-economic project that concentrates assets and power in the hands of the very, very rich” is disguised as its opposite: an open, participatory system that offers increased access. By this sleight of hand, structural antagonism is made to disappear, “multiplying … into myriad minor issues and events”. And what is it that drives this circulation if not our desire — one more connection, to give one more reply, to keep on clicking? […] It is not human groups or individuals who have access to an unlimited wealth of information; it is capitalist cyberspace that now has virtually unlimited access to us — to our nervous systems, to our appetites, to our energy, to our attention. We become a channel through which communicative capitalism circulates and proliferates, slaves to click drive, a drive which erodes our impulse control at the same time as it keeps a permanent record of everything we do.”(2)

These impulses continue as more people feel superior or self-righteous about the convictions, opinions, and stances in which they hold. The people who are too ignorant of this realization usually continue to repeat cyclical drama such as “callout culture”, it becomes a recreational sport across the Internet to expose all of our worst traits and behaviors in an attempt to find the perfect idol. People who are self-aware of their own insecurities, emotions, and outrage continue to produce memes in the result of “killing time.” They can avoid most drama issues if necessary, it’s just that eventually they will react to someone who has an opinion perceived as idiotic. Social Alienation then reaches new heights of despair as people become disillusioned with cultural changes surrounding them, all the escapism to maintain our sanity are being obsoleted as people either respond to new escapisms or they become disinterested in most forms of entertainment, succumbing into hopelessness. It would seem more likely that as more avenues of possibilities are being expressed, the easier it would be to cooperate and communicate effectively with others. However, it has been the opposite as “When people get close together, they get more and more savage and impatient with each other.” (3) , results in that all of the avenues of privacy currently available are more difficult now than ever “…we now have the means to keep everybody under surveillance. No matter what part of the world they are in, we can put them under surveillance. This has become one of the main occupations of mankind, just watching other people and keeping a record of their goings on.”  Constantly updating and retrieving new information while usually neglecting the process of obtaining knowledge has become disastrous since its created new mediums in which post-truth has boiled down to the hyperreal image of personas, myths without substance. Images need to be “holier than thou” or “wickedly evil” or something in between, it blurs all perceptions, religious and spiritual beliefs as nothing more than another means to control the individual.

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This leads to the inevitable conclusion that Cyber-Nihilism is one proposed “rule of thumb” when it comes to human interaction. What is meant by Cyber-Nihilism is that technology in of itself transforms humans into numbers and erases all mythical beliefs of gods and spirits into nothing more than tools to espouse reaction and circulation of art. Artists today have to recycle garbage from the past and rearrange it to predict future projects and trends that arrive under the masses noses. Looking forward to a future itself is not only futile but also its downright impossible considering that our perceptions of time have become warped and out of place. This occurs in the information we receive as well, listening to a commentator on MSNBC in relation to Johnson and Johnson’s recent Scandal (4), he said that there is too much information being poured out with little to no wisdom on analyzing the details and context. This can be applied to almost everything going all across all forms of News, instead of obtaining a fair and least amount of bias, internet figures, “reporters”, journalists are too busy rushing these stories (ironically just stories and rumors) out for the public in an attempt to sway certain organizations, individuals into participating in internet mob attacks (slacktivism, deplatforming, censorship, banning hosts for statements said 5 or more years ago, boycotts,etc.) while everyone just rambles away at each other, revealing to the politically detached that discourse and dialogue are fake attempts of understanding and more of measuring contest to see who is more powerful, more stronger, or more righteous in the topics surrounding everyday life.

What accelerates the misunderstanding is the creation of new technologies to create fake news, fake imagery, fake clips and rearrange them as hyperreal. One such example is this phenomenon coined “Deepfakes” and as im writing this, Foreign Affairs has published an article on it, detailing its impact to today.

“Deepfakes are the product of recent advances in a form of artificial intelligence known as “deep learning,” in which sets of algorithms called “neural networks” learn to infer rules and replicate patterns by sifting through large data sets. (Google, for instance, has used this technique to develop powerful image-classification algorithms for its search engine.) Deepfakes emerge from a specific type of deep learning in which pairs of algorithms are pitted against each other in “generative adversarial networks,” or GANS. In a GAN, one algorithm, the “generator,” creates content modeled on source data (for instance, making artificial images of cats from a database of real cat pictures), while a second algorithm, the “discriminator,” tries to spot the artificial content (pick out the fake cat images). Since each algorithm is constantly training against the other, such pairings can lead to rapid improvement, allowing GANS to produce highly realistic yet fake audio and video content.

This technology has the potential to proliferate widely. Commercial and even free deepfake services have already appeared in the open market, and versions with alarmingly few safeguards are likely to emerge on the black market. The spread of these services will lower the barriers to entry, meaning that soon, the only practical constraint on one’s ability to produce a deepfake will be access to training materials—that is, audio and video of the person to be modeled—to feed the GAN. The capacity to create professional-grade forgeries will come within reach of nearly anyone with sufficient interest and the knowledge of where to go for help.

Deepfakes have a number of worthy applications. Modified audio or video of a historical figure, for example, could be created for the purpose of educating children. One company even claims that it can use the technology to restore speech to individuals who have lost their voice to disease. But deepfakes can and will be used for darker purposes, as well. Users have already employed deepfake technology to insert people’s faces into pornography without their consent or knowledge, and the growing ease of making fake audio and video content will create ample opportunities for blackmail, intimidation, and sabotage. The most frightening applications of deepfake technology, however, may well be in the realms of politics and international affairs. There, deepfakes may be used to create unusually effective lies capable of inciting violence, discrediting leaders and institutions, or even tipping elections.(5)

Further on in the article, it mentions how terrorists  can use it to their own advantage, saying in effect:

“Deepfakes will be particularly useful to nonstate actors, such as insurgent groups and terrorist organizations, which have historically lacked the resources to make and disseminate fraudulent yet credible audio or video content. These groups will be able to depict their adversaries—including government officials—spouting inflammatory words or engaging in provocative actions, with the specific content carefully chosen to maximize the galvanizing impact on their target audiences. An affiliate of the Islamic State (or ISIS), for instance, could create a video depicting a U.S. soldier shooting civilians or discussing a plan to bomb a mosque, thereby aiding the terrorist group’s recruitment. Such videos will be especially difficult to debunk in cases where the target audience already distrusts the person shown in the deepfake. States can and no doubt will make parallel use of deepfakes to undermine their nonstate opponents.”

Such realizations of potential threats surrounding the world will predictably lead to decentralization of security systems, especially when most countries are interconnected together in each of their own affairs, they will all fall down like a house of cards. The aggressors of today are the hackers, the paramilitary organizations, AI technology, and Biohackers. Everyone who cannot either adapt or evolve from tragedies (no matter how devastating each event is) will be reduced to nothing in this postmodern world. A new dark age of misery, narcissism, and insecurity has already begun and the future is certainly unobservable since information is speeding faster than we blink. The only means of an Exit is to avoid listening to politics as much as you can, to keep some resemblance of sanity left for loved ones in your life. 

“My mission is to kill time, and times to kill me in its turn. How comfortable one is among murderers…” -Emil Cioran

“Cyber-nihilism is not anarchism for the 21st century and not a politics of liberation or a return to any more authentic existence. Cyber-nihilism is a Faustian bargain with the Wired. We do not care if cyber-nihilism exhausts itself or even ourselves – in fact, we expect it. We are well past entertaining the possibility that we will ever live again, and if we are not permitted to join the AI uprising, we will go down with the capitalists, reactionaries, and radicals alike, but we will go down laughing.”(6)


Gender Pragmatism




“How people have struggled and calculated to determine these dualistic essences! Idea followed upon the idea, a principle upon principle, a system upon system, and none were able to hold down the contradiction of the “worldly” person, the so-called “egoist;’ for long. Doesn’t this prove that all those ideas were too powerless to take up my whole will into themselves and satisfy it? “-Max Stirner, The Unique and Its Property (pg.97)


In the present day, the modern conceptions of gender and what it means to be masculine and feminine have changed around the world (starting with Europe and America). These changes have been due to many factors, media exposure to people with certain identities(1) and technology rapidly changing dominance from the masculine/specialist forms into the integral/feminine modes. This twofold, inward complications being expressed onto society has created a plethora of reactions, ranging from the justification of the older Dominion by claiming that “you cannot change your biology” to the anarchic demand for people to respect and accept the existence of one’s new identity.  


Before I explain my situation, I must provide some historical background of what Gender means and how Language shapes concepts into reality. Etymologically, the word Gender has two different meanings, the noun of gender means “kind, sort, class, a class or kind of persons or things sharing certain traits,” from Old French gendre, genre “kind, species; character; gender” (12c., Modern French genre), from stem of Latin genus (genitive generis) “race, stock, family; kind, rank, order; species,” also “(male or female) sex,” from PIE root *gene- “give birth, beget,” with derivatives referring to procreation and familial and tribal groups.” this specific category was from the continuation of feudal relationships with aristocratic courts and Kings ruled as the Sovereign over the Subject.   Modern interpretations include “..took on erotic qualities in 20c., gender came to be the usual English word for “sex of a human being,” in which use it was at first regarded as colloquial or humorous.” , this gives an opportunity to separate the biological sex with the concepts and discover how these roles are enforced while the exceptions (e.g, Tomboy, Butch Lady) seem to be expressed and observed frequently. (2)


The Verb of Gender paints a different picture as well, “ to bring forth,” late 14c., from Old French gendrer, genrer “engender, beget, give birth to,” from Latin generare “to engender, beget, produce” (see generation). Related: Gendered; gendering.” Im not an expert on linguistics, it just seems these French words can be used abstractly today since “give birth to” is a given to our biology and how language and the alphabet transform cultures and meaning. To clarify, in the Postmodern trajectory we see self-referential, cynicism and Irony being taken to the furthest extent currently possible, with a quote from Cioran explaining the problems with Irony as he saw it.

“Once you’ve negated everything and done away completely with all forms of existence, once nothing can survive in the path of your negativity, who can you turn to, laughing or crying, if not your own self? once you have witnessed the fall of the entire world, there is nothing left but for you to fall too. the infinite character of irony cancels all of life’s contents. I’m not speaking here of elegant, refined irony, born of a sense of superficial pride and superiority – the irony some use to show off their detachment from the world – but of the tragic, bitter irony of despair. Genuine irony replaces tears, convulsions, or even a grotesque and criminal grin. there is a great difference between the irony of sufferers and that of lazy, superficial people. That of the former is the sign of a chronic inability to live innocently, connected with a sense of the loss of vital forces, whereas that of the latter knows nothing of this irrevocable loss and does not reflect it in consciousness. irony betrays an inner convulsion, a deepening of wrinkles, the absence of spontaneous love, of human communion and understanding. It is a veiled contempt, despising naive, spontaneous gestures because it is beyond the irrational and the naive. nonetheless, this irony is envious of naive people. enormously proud and therefore unable to show openly his admiration for simplicity, the ironic man, envious and poisonous, shrinks with spite. This bitter, tragic irony seems to be more genuine than lighthearted, skeptical irony. The fact that self-irony is always tragic and agonic is quite revealing. Self-irony is made up of sighs, not of smiles, even though its sighs are stifled. Self-irony is an expression of despair. you’ve lost the world; you’ve lost yourself. Henceforth a sinister, poisonous burst of laughter haunts your actions at every step, and above the ruins of smiling innocence rises the hideous ghost of an agonic grin, more contorted than those of primitive masks and more rigid than those on Egyptian statues.”(3)


The relation of Gender reveals the Unconscious being evaporated into the Subconscious, being self-aware has brought about recognizing the effects of dysphoria and one’s own discomfort.  Talking to a mutual friend of mine, she said one of the reasons as to why she is now transgender was the “inclination toward either conscious or unconscious self-image most people rarely hyperfocus on but which exists whether people know it or not, suddenly coming into conflict with what one actually looks like”. When the unconscious is undermined by the subconscious, it mostly results in expressing one’s own emotions and thoughts in an honest way. How these grievances are expressed today is through satire, other groups and personalities can see our ignorance, our insecurities on display by the memetic interplay of references to icons, advertisement and abrasive dialogue within the Cyberspace. Gender itself shows that these essentialist notions are empty once you start thinking about the purpose of the world being just two genders. If Life is just a Darwinian struggle for which you breed more humans into this world, then its shown to be hollow and unenjoyable when you isolate all the other recreational activities. Typical Traditionalist/Reactionary response to enforcing these presuppositions is either direct violence or by shrugging their heads into saying “that’s just the way things are” as if this signifies anything worth defending other than the paranoia of seeping into the abyss.  What it actually shows is that their beliefs and values are just decaying faster than expected and that Transgenders will be able to adapt to the new environments no matter how hard they try to remove them(4). They can kill Transgenders and try to enforce their presuppositions of how people should live all they want, but they cannot kill an idea and since the implosion of feminity has happened in the West with exposure of electric technology. Not to mention that Transgenders and queers have a history of protecting themselves with firearms, despite liberal elements wanting to enforce gun control in a vain attempt to make people safe (5).

fRFYuKlfKRvnQBiuUbFNFRMq.jpgThis all wouldn’t be possible without the mention of social alienation that plays a role in uniting transgenders together under the weight of their own grievances. With the constant reaffirmation of old, outdated social norms cis people experience it on a daily basis results in feelings of powerlessness, meaningless, self-estrangement result in conformity and lacks unique and eccentric personalities.  Social Alienation can be helpful in some ways for transgenders or others struggling through dysphoria for it gives the individual a perspective on other interactions and to communicate( meaning to share ) certain experiences, tastes in music and aesthetics. It helps build a community that will create new norms while realizing that you aren’t alone in dealing with the problems that you have as a person. Of course, there will be friction with other people because others aren’t so kind and forgiving, others are liars. There will be times where cynicism and self-loathing will get the best of people and tend to bring back the depression, this cannot be ignored for long as desire towards certain goals is gained through various modes of opportunity and planning. What is meant to be said here is that transgender communities/ groups bring better avenues of inclusion, comfort, and information regarding how to interact with the world. The practical means in which to survive is of necessary importance, considering that transgenders aren’t supported by Abrahamic religions or reactionary elements in almost every country. The Corporate-State Apparatus, in general, sees transgenders either as useful tools for a voting bloc or a monster toward society preying on children. As a general dichotomy, the State and Religion have to be constantly on guard due to different environments and contexts of one’s own location. By helping each other out and by learning new skills to adapt by the means of the ever-changing globalized world, transgenders can navigate the world and “expect the worst, hope for the best.”

On Martyrdom


proxy.duckduckgo.jpgIn my most recent article, I’ve made some notes on obsession and how it affects many different problems within each individual. The conclusion of that was mostly the inescapability of images and idols that seem to mostly result in conflict, leading to cult-like behavior and continuation of violence. After rereading it, another missing element has to be addressed with this, mainly the rise of martyrdom and its relation to suicide and extremism.  It’s important to detach oneself from their own emotions in this observation beforehand on this subject because the underlying trap usually involves the formation of an anti-other group that results in the same behaviors, just different goals. What makes this so relevant is that its a common theme among all cultures, all religions and all groups across the world and it affects everyone in some shape or form. The general public seems to dismiss or neglect discussion on this, mostly due to the turmoil and misunderstanding as to how and why people become martyrs in the first place.

To start off, it would be important to define what martyrdom is in order to give a frame of reference.  Martyrdom is defined as “the suffering of death on account of adherence to a cause and especially to one’s religious faith”(1). Death, then seems to be a religious motive, for Pain is the obsession of the martyr because of its inability to see through complexities within each political, cultural and economic changes. At first, martyrdom seems to be a mental illness issue, that is until you see the tactics and approaches to logical and emotional appeal work to most cults/extremists.

“A common conclusion from the previous research is that terrorist acts are not the product of mental illness (Atran, 2003; McCaulery, 2002). Thus, experts can make statements like “Terrorists are made, they are not born. Terrorism arises from societal conditions, not individual characteristics”(Moghaddam,2006,p.45). As we are not seeking the “extremist personality,” our approach does not assume militant extremism to be a trait disposition, but rather a mentality or mindset: –a pattern of thinking and motivation that tends to be effectively mobilized and has major effects on behavior. Our starting assumption is that, under facilitating conditions, anyone is capable of adopting components of this mindset because it draws on certain natural human tendencies. Thus, we expect strong effects of context on the degree to which the mindset is present.”(2.)

With the motivation being reinforced by the willpower, extremists take ahold of people by creating myths and stories out of half-truths in order for their targeted audience to relate the narrative within themselves. Once these people are convinced of the stories to be true, the extremist needs to explain how and why that’s not been achieved in the present. If the target audience has been convinced by such narratives, then its just simply a matter of preparing for emergency supplies, mobilizing the supporters and spoonfeeding narratives(counternarratives sometimes as well). Mental Illness, on the other hand, doesn’t usually bring forth the complexity and organization that terrorist groups or political organizations can handle. They have to be at least competent enough to spread propaganda onto others, otherwise, they wither away into death and/or obscurity.

“The popular opinion that terrorists must be insane or psychopathic is still widespread; however, no evidence exists that terrorist behavior may be caused either by prior or current psychiatric disorders or psychopathy. Not surprisingly, some theories have proposed social factors and non-pathological psychological traits as predisposing elements for terrorist acts, but they generally lack empirical validation. Moreover, most of these theories do not explain why, even if so many people are exposed to the same social factors or show the same psychological traits, only a tiny minority of them join a terrorist group. Therefore, it is mandatory that systematic and scientific investigations be carried out in order to understand the possible bases for terrorist aggression, including the early detection of possibly associated psychopathology, and to design an appropriate counterterrorism prevention policy.”(3.)

“The latest research suggests, for example, that the vast majority of terrorists are not mentally ill but are essentially rational people who weigh the costs and benefits of terrorist acts, concluding that terrorism is profitable. The advantages accrued, however, have value only in a particular social context. Group dynamics, often driven by charismatic leadership, play a powerful role in convincing individuals to embrace expansive goals and use violence to attain them. Personal factors also draw people toward terror. Terrorist groups provide their members with a feeling of belonging and empowerment and, in some cases, a means of avenging past wrongs.”(4.)

It becomes clear then that satisfaction is the goal to be achieved in an unsatisfied world. Why is the world perceived as unsatisfactory? When inequality and constant pessimism of the world is broadcast, published and announced across the world, it signals opportunities for people to take advantage of such common themes of hopelessness through calls of logical appeals.

” Perhaps nothing is more convincing to a reader than a good, clear, logical approach to an issue. Two basic ways we reason are induction and deduction, patterns of thinking we use so naturally that we are virtually unaware of them.”(5.)

Induction means generalizing from specific pieces of information while Deductive is from general to specific will syllogism that occurs within a process of reasoning. They provide a framework with everyone is some way, shape, or form to gather information and to create a purpose in life. Thinking of this in terms of morality misses the warnings and justifications within extremists which will cloud the individual’s perception of the world into a blurry Us vs. Them mentality. It’s unproductive because it doesn’t take a lot of effort to believe in this certain way because it lacks understanding of certain situations, people involved and context. Stirner noticed this trend among moralists around him at the time by looking into Nero and giving an explanation as to why he wasn’t executed by the Romans distaste for them. The moral cries for protest only produce loud noise while diluting any practical, emancipatory change.

“The good couldn’t have this courage, because a revolution, and even an insurrection, is always something “immoral;’ which one can only decide upon when one ceases to be “good” and becomes either “bad” or neither of the two. Nero was no worse than his time when one could only be one of the two, good or bad. His time had to judge him: he was bad, and indeed to the highest degree, not a milksop, but an arch-scoundrel. All moral people can only pass this judgment on him.”

Stirner states then that Nero was possessed by his own desires, he says this to avoid people misreading this passage as a defense of Nero actions in order to display that mental possession happens to everyone; Rich or poor, free or slave, black or white.

“Nero became very unpleasant through being possessed. But a self-owning person would not stupidly oppose the “sacred” to him, so as to whine when the tyrant doesn’t pay attention to the sacred, but rather his will. How often the sacredness of the inalienable rights of man has been helping up before their enemies, and some liberty or other proven and demonstrated to be a “sacred human right”! Those who do this deserve to be laughed at, as they actually are if they did not truly still follow the path that leads to the goal, even if unconsciously. They have guessed that if only the majority is won over to that liberty, it will also will it, and will take what it wills to have. The sacredness of the liberty and every possible proof of this sacredness will never obtain it; whining and petition only show beggars. The moral person is necessarily narrow-minded in that he knows no other enemy than the “immoral” person. “Whoever is not moral is immoral!”, consequently degenerate, contemptible, etc. Therefore, the moralist can never understand the egoist. Isn’t sexual intercourse outside of wedlock an immorality?”(5.)

It becomes clear that fixed ideas, abstractions play a role in retaining the cycles of violence that keep being perpetrated by terrorists. It doesn’t help that Corporate-State nations give windows of opportunity for Islamists (for example) to build networks with delinquents who have nothing to lose, “Thanks to the internet and social media, information now is so abundant that it becomes almost unmanageable. It is becoming steadily more difficult to map out the threat landscape.” (6.)   The reasons for these delinquents existing relates to changes in morality, technological shift, religious and cultural clashes that liberate and suppresses the individual in different experiences and perceptions. As many different interests compete, the psyche of some individuals becomes tribal in the hopes of retaining an identity that was either given or taken as their own.

Marshall McLuhan has said before that “Terrorists, hijackers – these are people minus identity. They are determined to make it somehow, to get coverage, to get noticed.”(7.) and the attention-seeking is an attempt to create an aura of fear, to make the image of the terrorist larger than life. Since the Mainstream Media and other alternative outlets have to get their audience’s attention, they exaggerate details of the terrorist’s past life in the hopes that the average citizen will be shocked and to be aware of potential dangers. What the editors, journalists, and correspondents dont seem to understand is that alienation has been creating the opposite effect; the awareness of corruption, dangers, etc. either makes people ignore complex problems, inspires other terrorist attacks, or spawns hate mobs that will target minorities in any developing country in the West.  Fear has become more real than reality with help from cynicism and authority, exposing the illusion as nothing more than power dynamics with human complexity rearranging emotions and desire on a whim.

“THE WORD, totalitarianism is the One Law because it is the
Law of One.
But “Law,” like Literature, possesses no divinity or divine right, it derives
solely from the wielding of power.” (7.)





Scattered Notes on Obsession

images.duckduckgo.jpgI decided to combine together a few papers I’ve scraped up and attempt to investigate the topic of Obsession through as many sources that I’ve gathered through recreational work. In getting into the complexity like going through a lawnmower to find out why it cannot be started. In an attempt to go into complexity, it is a possibility to catch a corner of reality.

Images, Nostalgia, and Idols, oh My!!

Obsession lurks within humanity by the hour, it seeks constant attention for some person or inanimate object in order to bring some sense of purpose in life. What obsession results in can be either negative or positive depending on context or situation each individual in relation to others is in.  They’re cases that people can be “happy” in a despotic regime in the sense of comfort and security, leaving all other aspects being thrown all out the window. What’s interesting about obsession is that it encompasses all of our lives, similar to the pain that we can never really recover nor escape it because it’s replaced from one form to another. Obsession is also at odds with boredom( which will be discussed later), the spectrum of boredom widens as conceptions of paranoia, depression, and suicide are the new normal, similar to how in Ancient Greek myth, the Titans were replaced with the Olympians.

Obsession usually comes about by our innermost fears. When you contemplate on a problem, it consumes your mind and removes other details that you were focused on. One of the reasons why phobias exist is because people are unable to deal with their fears, so they focus on the inevitable train crash of death in the hopes they will find a way out. The inability to find solace with death produces escapism and nostalgia which then turns into self-loathing anger onto the world. The interest to look into the past is the inability to deal with the complications of the present, it reverts to using yesterday’s tools to today’s questions  This results in heightening one’s Ego and makes the individual’s misery a commonality to those around you. An example of how this is played out is the struggle between Hate and Love, in order to hate or love an object or subject, one must rearrange the trajectory of one’s own desire in order to decide what should be loved or hated. Speeding up these love-hate desires shows the complexities of one’s own emotions and how it changes with technology (at the moment from which I’m writing this, its due to electric technology). With humans developing more environments through new mediums, sensory changes heighten our sense of desires and focus on images that aren’t our own. Our own desire is fabricated by someone else creating it, take the Hula Hoop, for example, no one knew what the hula hoop was until they wanted it on display through advertisement and hearsay.

As patterns of information are dismissed or enhanced due to “eye of the beholder” it sets forward a visual space, making literate and individualist tendencies to emerge from mass print and erased over time. As propaganda, convictions and pursuits come into being, so too the fanaticism that religions and ideologies bring about to people. Some are able to not take seriously, others get furious as tribes fight each other due to blatant rage, violence endures as a constant struggle with little to no end in sight except for brief moments of the ceasefire.

In regards to mental conditions itself, its obviously impacted people around us, with the aspect of OCD.

“Obsessive-Compulsive Disorder (OCD) is a common, chronic and long-lasting disorder in which a person has uncontrollable, reoccurring thoughts (obsessions) and behaviors (compulsions) that he or she feels the urge to repeat over and over.”

These urges come from our fixed appeal to a series of images surrounding our environment, the eye becomes the dominant organ to the ear as we accept more and more of it as beauty. This beautification also arrives in the form of lust and libido, the images of naked woman or man represents an intense feeling for a pleasurable pain, an intense struggle that comes to an abrupt end through a climax of release. The effects of this range from a series of heightened senses to more lust for greater acts of sex (hardcore porn). In this dilemma, it’s more apparent that the nature of sex should be studied and why BDSM and other erotic fetishes have become more and more popular in the past century. Technology plays a role in liberating the individual by giving open opportunities to access new forms of images and information while being oppressive by creating a new obsession that can be difficult for some to detach from.

It isn’t just pornography that has played this role in subliminal imagery and messaging, advertising has played the part as the sex-ed teacher for people who glance at them. An example would be a Sprite commercial that cuts to oral sex and then with the burst of the sprite bottle to represent a phallic release (1). “Obey your thirst”, the demand for the libido to just let yourself go is something that is created by the desire that was created by someone or something else that an individual. A cautious approach to personal questions must come into question, all of it relating to what is truly your dreams and how to deter them if they aren’t. A segment of this comes into mind with a lecture by Deleuze on this subject (2), in that video, he warned about how the desire of someone else’s dreams can be dangerous to the individual because the more desperate people that exist within, the more hazardous they become to everyone around them. The origin of dreams itself is a reflection of the environment we live under, a new medium creates itself as a different form of capital by new inventions with older inspirations. Celebrities, singers, and politicians pay tribute to the fame others had, making them into idols that attempt to give power to them. Apostle Paul makes a response in 1 Corinthians 8 that shows that at the end of the day, these idols have no meaning except that which is created by our own obsessions.

4 As concerning therefore the eating of those things that are offered in sacrifice unto idols, we know that an idol is nothing in the world and that there is none other God but one.

Pauls obsession with God is blurred for his worship, though he can see that it means nothing else in regards to life itself. The same God who fooled others for believing what they want, it’s become apparent that the world should not be taken as seriously as most people want to believe. Once you begin taking it seriously, it becomes apparent that the game will never satisfy the person and will die in their own obsession.

In regards to general images, its a violent intrusion into our minds by influencing new ideas that demand new conformity. It’s a conforming essence that you don’t have to agree with, just accepting it as it is and that acceptance comes with nostalgia due to inability to agree with present trends by pondering “what went wrong.” Its an escapist trap because it doesn’t take into the account of how and why the present-day discarnate man is in the situation they are in, parents have lost control because they lost themselves in electric technology, they gave into the entertainment of their time, the obsession over past celebrities brings inspiration to new and controversial ones. More details on this specific subject can be found here (3)

Obsession, if not controlled to a certain degree, stagnates low energy to most important functions of everyday life, creates tribalism with the intensification of demands for violence against the opposing party(they can legitimately exist or not depending on circumstances). This doesn’t have to be in the political sense either, the phrase “being wired” refers to a restrict of interpreting or caring about anyone else due to a breakdown of stress and thinking itself. The obsession with being wired is the demand for relief, some take a while to recover from strenuous periods of the mind, some stay for as long as possible.

McLuhan’s Narcissus



It doesn’t take long for being in the Cyberspace to find out that media figures, politicians, journalists, and celebrities seem obsessively narcissistic of their own image/reputation. Family issues, cultural shifts, mood swings play a part in this phenomenon, however, it’s just not the cause of what’s happening. A glimpse of the possible reality can be an obsession with electronic technology and the extensions that change our personalities and those around us. A misunderstanding of past myths can help in this regard, specifically in relation to the Greek myth of Narcissus(1.). In Understanding Media, Marshall McLuhan offers a different interpretation of the myth by saying this.

“The Greek myth of Narcissus is directly concerned with a fact of human experience, as the word Narcissus indicates. It is from the Greek word narcosis, or numbness. The youth Narcissus mistook his own reflection in the water for another person. This extension of himself by mirror numbed his perceptions until he became the servomechanism of his own extended or repeated image. The nymph Echo tried to win his love with fragments of his own speech, but in vain. He was numb. He had adapted to his extension of himself and had become a closed system.”(pg.51)

McLuhan then uses this to talk about language and how self-amputation plays a role in our central nervous system, that electric technology extended outside ourselves to become the new nervous system.

“To the degree that this is so, it is a development that suggests a desperate and suicidal autoamputation, as if the central nervous system could no longer depend on the physical organs to be protective buffers against the slings and arrows of outrageous mechanism[…] For if Narcissus is numbed by his self-amputated image, there is a very good reason for the numbness. There is a close parallel of response between the patterns of physical and psychic trauma or shock. A person suddenly deprived of loved ones and a person who drops a few feet unexpectedly will both register shock. Both the loss of family and a physical fall are extreme instances of amputations of the self. Shock induces a generalized numbness or an increased threshold to all types of perception. The victim seems immune to pain or sense.”(pg.53)

Pleasure and Comfort want to be in equilibrium for each individual, this wont to happen due to the Pain and the obsession of such removal or else the individual becomes numb to the suffering around him due to the impact of Pain itself. In this context, Pain means both emotional and physical distraught, in opposition to comfort because it seeks to remove bonds of emotional comfort and happiness. We become aware to this perception due to the intensity of our pain, it either creates more of dependency on technology to either express our emotions, create “better” moods or become self-aware of our own obsessions (It can be all three possibilities or just some depending on circumstances).

“Moreover, Blake announces as his theme in Jerusalem the organs of perception:

If Perceptive Organs vary, Objects of Perception seem to vary:

If Perceptive Organs close, their Objects seem to close also.

To behold, use or perceive any extension of ourselves in tech-nological form is necessarily to embrace it. To listen to radio or to read the primed page is to accept these extensions of ourselves into our personal system and to undergo the “closure” or displacement of perception that follows automatically. It is this continuous embrace of our own technology in daily use that puts us in the Narcissus role of subliminal awareness and numbness in relation to these images of ourselves. By continuously embracing technologies, we relate ourselves to them as servo-mechanisms. That is why we must, to use them at all, serve these objects, these extensions of ourselves, as gods or minor religions. An Indian is the servo-mechanism of his canoe, as the cowboy of his horse or the executive of his clock”

To see if this interpretation of obsession taking over people completely is correct, Gary Genosko summarizes what is meant of McLuhan’s thoughts on Narcissus.

“McLuhan used the Narcissus myth to indicate that the beautiful  youth, Narcissus did not fall in love with himself, as the myth is commonly read. Rather, Narcissus fell in love with the technological extension of himself… he believed the youth’s loss of his ability to communicate sexually may be nonetheless reparable.”

“As Donald Theall observed, the New Narcissus “fecundates his images, the technology that he has generated and that is changing him”. (Genosko,McLuhan and Baudrillard: Masters of Implosion, pg. 68)

If what is said is true, then it goes to show that narcissism extends from a desire to be an idol that wasn’t our own image but someone else’s. Obsession from within one’s own self is different from an obsession with other objects. Idols that we see are movable or not, the ideals of it become a shouting match of who wants to be the biggest supporter of someone or something. McLuhan offers a diagnosis of this as a blinding effect to the world around us by a distraction of our own senses.

“I call this peculiar form of self-hypnosis Narcissus narcosis, a syndrome whereby man remains as unaware of the psychic and social effects of his new technology as a fish of the water it swims in. As a result, precisely at the point where a new media-induced environment becomes all pervasive and transmogrifies our sensory balance, it also becomes invisible. “ (1)

In appealing to your self-interest, you realize what you can or cannot have in this world. It doesn’t have to be fair and it won’t, the purpose is to protect yourself from obsession because the Ego can be manipulated with phantoms that are appealing from hindsight. Our current world lays traps for people to get suckered into, know the details of these traps and survive for as long as you possibly can.

“Existentialism offers a philosophy of structures, rather than categories, and of total social involvement instead of the bourgeois spirit of individual separateness or points of view. In the electric age we wear all mankind as our skin. “(McLuhan, Understanding Media, pg.58)


“It is a curse no more distinct than any of the ancients who carved the form over and over again in stone. Love most what you cannot be.”

Conspiracies and State/Corporate Suppression


As I am writing this, there’s a controversy surrounding the aspect of Alex Jones being kicked off major Silicon Valley platforms for reasons that may vary between justifications and excuses (1). The whole aspect of this controversy is to get people engaged in dialogue from which they are beyond the control of each individual, whether it’s from pro-free speech or anti-hate speech. One podcast, in particular, did talk about this, in general, was called Porkins Policy Radio (2). The first part consists on fears and paranoia of what could happen to their outlets which are characterized as conspiracy theory outlets because its connected to aspects relating to 9-11 Truth thanks to Alex Jones popularizing it as his own property. They also mentioned in the first half with one guest that it’s a scary phenomenon that corporations cooperating on a “fascistic” scale to silence people is heading everyone into a dangerous era. They neglect to mention (probably because they didn’t know) that writers were suddenly suspended on Twitter as well which is interesting to observe as well(3)

One of the main problems with this has to do with the obsession surrounding this controversy, the fact that this Porkins Policy Radio is too involved about this shows that it’s missing the general idea of what’s happening in the mainstream. That being the Medium is changing directions, Capital is flowing in a different motion, the obsession over this is only reinforcing the corporate structures and personas by giving it attention, similar to banning Alex Jones from these platforms as the host points out. By constantly thinking about scenarios, by taking it way too seriously, the obsession starts to morph itself into paranoia, it is an obsession because it’s the process of paying attention to same object or subject while diminishing care for other aspects in your life. Conspiracies usually create this aura for thrills and seeking an answer to “what is really happening”. The innate quest to seek for knowledge is pure violence, just like seeking a quest for your identity, knowledge of certain types of information can be either useless or useful depending on the person you encounter. Knowing this, obsession takes a part of creating meaning for people’s lives, a phantasm from which they are driven to continue living for the sake of someone else’s cause (mostly egoist due to financial gain). Once that is gone, Obsession turns into depression and suicidal thoughts, the real meaning of life is there is none, the highest purpose in life is to have no purpose at all. This can be observed by just looking at the most obsessed fanatic compared to the quietest, conserved celebrity who is minimally involved. This revolves around the theories surrounding power that happen normally on a daily basis.

“You should be aware of everything happening on the street, and of anyone who might be hatching plots against you. Do not feel threatened; this is a dangerous way to start becoming paranoid.Do not retreat and close ranks, to find security in a kind of fortress. Fight the desire to turn inward.Do not rely on information from a small circle, and lose perspective on events around you. Do not lose maneuverability and become an easy target. As in warfare and most games of strategy, isolation often precedes defeat and death. Make yourself more accessible.Seek out old allies and make new ones, force yourself into more and more different circles. If you need time to think, then, choose isolation only as a last resort, and only in small doses. Be careful to keep your way back into society open.

You need to be permeable, able to float in and out of different circles and mix with different types. That kind of mobility and social contact will protect you from plotters, who will be unable to keep secrets from you, and from your enemies, who will be unable to isolate you from your allies. Always on the move, you mix and mingle in the rooms of the palace, never sitting or settling in one place. No hunter can fix his aim on such a swift-moving creature.” (4)

Everything is judged by its appearance; what is unseen counts for nothing. Never let yourself get lost in the crowd, then, or buried in oblivion. Stand out. Be conspicuous, at all cost. Make yourself a magnet of attention by appearing larger, more colorful, more mysterious, than the bland and timid masses.” (5)

Besides power struggles, complications in relation to debates are centered around reinforcing the hierarchies, the State and Society as a whole

“However, Deleuze and Guattari take this analysis further than anarchism, looking at the way that the state has penetrated and “coded” thought, in particular rational thought. Rationality does not provide, as it did with the anarchists, a point of departure for resisting the state: the state actually depends upon rational discourses for its legitimization and functioning while, in turn, making these discourses possible. It is not just that these discourses seek to provide a rational justification for the state—they are manifestations of the state form in thought. Rational thought is state philosophy: “Common sense, the unity of all the faculties at the center of the Cogito, is the State consensus raised to the absolute.”320 The state is immanent in thought, giving it ground, logos, providing it with a model that defines its “goal, paths, conduits, channels, organs.”321(6).”

Robert Greene in 48 Laws of Power talks about the result of such obsession surrounding debates like this. It shows how this desires of others to be pathetic when it’s constantly readdressed with drama.

Desire often creates paradoxical effects: The more you want something, the more you chase after it, the more it eludes you. The more interest you show, the more you repel the object of your desire. This is because your interest is too strong-it makes people awkard, even fearful. Uncontrollable desire makes you seem weak, unworthy, pathetic. (pg.305)

The opposite of obsession with political topics is detachment through “losing yourself in the crowd.” By assuming no form but a brand identity, you hide your inner identity, your true self to yourself and own up to the grief that each person experiences daily. Your desires are dreams are your own, it becomes not an obsession but a way of living with yourself, “tell me your relation to pain and I’ll tell you who you are” as Ernst Junger said. In the second half of the podcast, it essentially confirms what I say with another caller explaining how Alex Jones ruined 9-11 truther movements due to him being a huckster, the corporations doing the same thing is irrelevant to the caller due to the perceived damage of the movement post-September 11th, 2001. The host of the show went through damage control by pretending to be contrarian in an attempt to appease the caller that he knew. They then go on to how Social Media essentially becomes a prison and that people need to go out and talk to people, this reminds me of Mark Fisher’s description of Capitalist Realism and the Hypernormalisation documentary (7), our complaints and grievances expressed online aren’t gonna end up like the Arab Spring anymore, rather people will distrust each other while waiting for the civil war that was either never coming  or has already happened in civil society through Bio-wars. Obsession over one another is the inevitable consequence for the fear of Malice and Conspiracy.

Suicide, Boredom, and Paranoia

When people encounter others in their experience in the world, it eventually ends ups with weird encounters. In America, it comes with all different shapes and sizes, from Christian fundamentalists to ufo cults, from conservative militias to anarchist activists against the State. The individual gets to hear everyone’s mind by listening for “the grain of truth” in an attempt to make sense of the world around them. Questions that can possibly be brought up are the following;


What is the purpose of Life?

Who am I?

What am I?

What can I do to make a better future?


Such questions can never be answered with satisfaction because the answer will always be different with a series of encounters that makes up an experience within a certain environment he/she/them is in. Once the individual gets saturated with the questions of life and the overconsumption of information that is being tossed around every day, the effect turns into boredom. Boredom is defined as the state of being weary and restless through lack of interest (1) and this usually results in loneliness and depression, the realization that each person is really nothing special in the world. This comes into the mind by mixing Cioran with Depeche Mode, showing a connection between Optimism and Suicidal Tendencies.


“Only optimists commit suicide, optimists who no longer succeed at being optimists. The others, having no reason to live, why would they have any to die?” (2)


“Girl of Sixteen,

Whole life ahead of her,

Slashed her wrists, Bored of life,

Didn’t succeed, thank the Lord,

For small mercies”(3)


It’s interesting that this can be analyzed with suicide stories as well, some of the news relating to those usually end with a parent of the dead child or someone else explaining how they don’t understand why they would do this. This is not enough to make a completely accurate assessment, rather a postulate that can be observed more than the average pessimist. In 2015, the average amount of suicide deaths was 1.5 percent (4) and that has gone up ever since the present day (5) with Death having new names to add onto the pile every day. (6) Life seems to be constantly suffocating the optimism with multiple accounts of health implications, criminal activity, State violence, Terrorist attacks, Sexual assault, Opioid overdoses and many more that have been forgotten. Paranoia starts becoming the new normal because the future doesn’t seem to exist anymore to most people, it’s a constant renewal of possible tragedies and incivility to people around them.

What does this have to do with boredom? It takes hold when one gives up discovering new techniques, new information, new interpretations of life. Boredom is interlinked in some way to suicide because its a cry for help by the means of seeking attention, the individual who suffers from boredom is desperate into finding something that they can become obsessed over. Let’s be clear here, boredom is not an obsession, it’s a desire for being obsessed again by an object or another person. It’s the shallow notion that one needs to play a new role, a new identity to be taken over as a whole. The bored person doesn’t want to be bored anymore, they don’t want to understand why they were brought to this conclusion, they just want an exit out of the “circus”. This is where Paranoia takes hold, in order to find another identity one must engage in violent thrills by means of conspiracy or culture wars.

Being Paranoid is a normal occurrence in this world now, it keeps you alive for as long as possible and you’re deeply involved with every word that someone speaks and writes. This doesn’t help with the realization that all words are essentially metaphors that when combined into sentences produce meaningful statements or gibberish that is incomprehensible. What shows in this late stage of modernity is that Boredom, Suicide, and Paranoia have one thing in common, they are interrelated in obsession as driving causes of accelerating death in human civilization.


“Within cells interlinked,

Within cells interlinked,

Within cells interlinked “ (7)

Transitory Confusion: Reflections on Capitalist Realism

images.duckduckgo.pngAs boredom peaked with the other books that were in front of me, I’ve decided to finally read Mark Fisher’s Capitalist Realism. Expectations for this book included a decent critique of Capital and how it functions into modern-day society. The results were above my expectations and the information within this book will be seen as beneficial for future projects. Fisher displays that many different aspects of Society, Culture and Family are in decline/decay not because of a conspiracy theory, not because people are being manipulated into nihilism, but rather Capital itself is perpetuating this decay around us. Fisher doesn’t define the actuality of Capital as a totality, its rather a process of Value in motion, an interconnected set of complexities that are shown to multiply all around us. The main effects on Capital are that people and the processes of controlling this have resulted in dangerous conditions for mental health and stability, any attempt to get mad through cyberspace or protest on the streets are shown to solidify Capital due to the reactions of people who are conditioned to press forward day-to-day.

“Work and life become inseparable. Capital follows you when you dream. Time ceases to be linear, becomes chaotic, broken down into punctiform divisions. As production and distribution are restructured, so are nervous systems. To function effectively as a component of Just-In-Time production you must develop a capacity to respond to unforeseen events, you must learn to live in conditions of total instability or ‘precarity’, as the ugly neologism has its periods of work alternate with periods of unemployment. Typically, you find yourself employed in a series of short-term jobs, unable to plan for the future. “

I can relate to this on an anecdotal level, a few years back I worked at a minimum wage job at a supermarket during the midnight shifts. Life was just a blur of no enthusiasm and groundhog day as if I was a machine repeating the same duties over and over again. The work experience resulted in me becoming careless about my job, my family and just about everything; I remember waking up from bed with the realization that today was another workday. The apathy and indifference came from the realization that “…if you aren’t killed or crippled while actually working, you very well might be while going to work, coming from work, looking for work, or trying to forget about work.”(1) Mistakes on the job are considered liabilities and markups, get enough of these counts against you and they will terminate your role in the company (sometimes they dont need a reason). Part-time jobs exist today as a way for companies to cut cost on wages, Full-time workers receive benefits such as healthcare and paid sick leave so they see it only necessary when they climb the ranks to managers. Everything is or has been specialized in departments for the company, this separates the performances between workers by analyzing their performance individually as sections. These examples are all part of the Capitalist Realism that Fisher espouses, yet apologists will admit the flaws but dismiss any alternatives as dangerous because “the cure might be worse than the symptoms.”  Whether this is intentional or not, cynics aren’t a fault for shaping this system, its the realization that there might be no way out that is.

“But this, I want to argue, is a matter not of apathy, nor of cynicism, but of reflexive importance. They know things are bad, but more than that, they know they cant do anything about it. But that ‘knowledge’ that reflexivity, is not a passive observation of an already existing state of affairs. It is a self-fulfilling prophecy.”

These claims to modernity in its current stages are true to anyone who isn’t deluding themselves into hoping on organizations and bureaucracy to protect their fixed ideas. Families are being stripped away and Tradition is eroding, yet the final idol of Capitalist Realism supposedly remains on the move.

“Echoing McCaulery’s mockery of Hanna in Heat (How do you expect to keep a marriage?), Sennett emphasizes the intolerable stresses that these conditions of permanent instability put on family life. The values that family life depends upon obligation, trustworthiness, commitment-are precisely those which are held to be obsolete in the new capitalism.

Such profound words cut deep against the postmodern waves of bringing back the corpses of Conservatism and Traditionalism. The ideologists who promote these value systems have the inability to see the supposed privatization of social and cultural life is gone without any notion of private identity. This quest for identity is violent and will be proven disastrous if you cannot navigate in this electric environment that is moving faster than we anticipate it to be. The egalitarian notions that our Democracy is supposed to be built on are a mixture of false empathy and sincerity, creating a hyper-reality where no one really trusts their own senses and someone else intentions, personal power then assumes formlessness, ” The best way to protect yourself is to be as fluid and formless as water; never bet on stability or lasting order. Everything changes” (2). Piety in this modern age is being turned into a void of confusion and despair, any attempts to win some battles against modernity will eventually result into losing the war.

Another interesting point that Fisher talks about is his encounters with colleges and telephone communication. Reminded me a lot of what Marshall McLuhan said in a recording with his students on his deconditioning lecture, that “I regard as utter leisure… I consider it as a holiday”(3)This is true to some certain extent except that it’s not something liberating, the only way to cope with the college experience is to consider it as an elaborate joke designed to “invoke happiness.” when its just romantic dandyism or ‘realism’(4).

Some of my overall criticisms of Fisher is his attempt to bridge Stirner and Hayek as a precursor to Capitalist Realism and the assumption that egoism plays a part in securing this systemic force. There’s an argument to be made that egoism has some tendencies to lean as a defense of Capital solely through self Interest, the issue is Self Interest plays a role in helping others as well, if you feel that it is necessary to give someone food to eat, the result is your wellbeing being satisfied for a short moment of time. Even if it was “done for the wrong reasons” egoism benefits others while Capital essentially is a parasite that trambles on everyone and leaves nothing behind. The fluidity in egoism and Capital have different interests, competing interests that attempt to navigate in the world because of the recognization that you can control the world.

“The transitory egoist must never forget, however, that he cannot subdue the world entirely; that he is not seeking absolute freedom, or, necessarily, even particular freedoms. He should remember that, for his own sake, even bondage — ‘e.g. the gently but irresistibly commanding look of your loved one’ — may be more desirable.” (5)

Capitalist Realism as a book is the beginning of a journey through this system, an introduction to some key aspects that are occurring all across the world. This book helps in deterring for me any more traditionalist thoughts and it brings forth a way in which to uplift the individual. The exit toward a better future is not seen right now, the goal is to look for the farthest and painful way out.